It is time faced my age, my appearance and my future, even though I don't want to face the cruel reality that I am an adult rather than a child or teenager. As an adult, I have to learn how to live alone, how to be responsible for a great variety of matters by myself and how to understand my parent's pressure and share family burden with them. There is ambivalence in my heart, on the one hand I desire for my future life, I look forward to seeking a good job, finding a considerate husband and giving birth to several clever and obedient children.On the other hand, worries and misgivings for tomorrow are full of my mind. No one can predict their future, of course including me, which aggravate the sense of insecurity for individuals. When something out of our control, a kind of inexplicable sense of crisis will tread on the heels. Challenge exists everywhere at any time. But just because of that, we are required to welcome my future with the positive attitude. I can not control to be born, I can not choose my parents, I can not change the immediate circumstances of my upbringing. However, within all these realm of choicelessness, we can determine how we shall live:courageously or cowardice, honorably or dishonorably, with purpose or in drift. The future is not anything but uncertain and powerful enemy, whether we prepared or not, it won't retreat. Therefore I will spare no efforts to rise to any occasions and challenges.
After all, I am still an adult not the old man. Too many things are waiting for me to explore, I can't stop. I know provided that I always indulge in useless anxieties, I will regret for everything when I become an elder.
